I found out this week my insurance got cancelled, yet another fun thing in my life now. That means that my time as an official Weight Watchers member is over. Until I'm gainfully employed again, I'm going this on my own, and I'm just grateful that it's really pretty routine now. The group support means a lot though, and I'll miss it, but I'm lucky. I have a lot of support from my family and friends, and that helps a lot.
My biggest challenges will continue to be keeping enough variety in my diet to keep food fun and interesting. It's so easy to do the same meals over and over until my body is screaming for something new. Food should be a pleasure, and it's taken me a long time to get that back. Eating healthily is not just a discipline. It has meant expanding my palate to a wider variety of tastes. It has meant eating consciously, and savoring my food. I craved McDonald's french fries today but couldn't finish my order. I let myself really taste them, and they were really good, but only a touch of grease and salt were all I needed to be satisfied when my mind and mouth were simultaneously engaged. Honestly, the biggest food challenge I face is allowing the time to plan and prepare good meals for one. Food is a necessity. Enjoying food is a matter of principle. Time spent just on doing something nice for myself is a luxury.
That last point really brought home to me that the lessons I've learned through this diet journey have more to do with life and how I want to live than with food or body shape and size. This long haul of a diet has reinforced to me that I have value and am worthy of good treatment and respect. The changes in my body have not made me valuable. I've just learned to treat myself better, and that has helped create some changes. It's the simplest lessons that have to be driven home over and over again.
This morning, I stepped on the scales for the first time in days, a good thing for me. That's a lessening in some of the diet related obsession. My weight was 247.0. I lost 2.4 pounds in the last week even with Halloween candy, bringing my total weight loss to 133 pounds. I'm feeling pretty good.
diets, weight loss
Saturday, November 1, 2008
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3 comments:
Oh, I'm so sorry about the insurance. But glad to hear how well you are doing and how carefully thought through your approach is. It does work, when we work it.;-)
You can do it, but it is really scary to be without insurance! We have had dreadful insurance coverage this year and have hated every minute of it! Thank goodness it will be better in '09.
You are doing amazingly well! What an inspiration to those of us who have let our enthusiasm wane a little.
Hi Cynthia :) first, your writing is brilliant (long time on and off lurker). Second, congrats on the weight loss!!! I think 133 lbs is something to be very proud of! Third, I am a licensed lifestyle educator. (That's fancy for diet coach.) If you ever have any questions or if I can ever help you in any way, send me an email- wh1368@aol.com. (I'm from the old school AOL gang) :)
Again, congrats!
~Ann
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