Catching Up

I've been without internet for a few weeks, but I haven't quit working Weight Watchers. It's now been one year and seven weeks, and I've lost 80. 8 pounds. The last few weeks have not been easy. I had a four week plateau for the month of September. That was so frustrating that I then gained weight for the first three weeks of October. Gaining weight three weeks in a row scared me. Everything I'd heard or read about how diets don't work, and everybody regains the weight they lose and more, my experiences doing exactly that just pounded through my head.

I took a good look at where I had been, where I was now and then imagined where I could be. That's what I want. I'll never be skinny. The weight I want to weight won't even be thin by most people's standards, but I have the feeling that it's going to be just right for me. I gave up feeling worried and rebellious about tracking my food, and just started doing it again. It's no big deal really, but I had mentally worked it up into a big hassle. Now I just do it. I've also lost for the last three weeks in a row and weigh less now than I did before I got pregnant with the seventeen year old womanchild. I'm back on track. I've been gently humbled, strongly encouraged, and I'm actually wanting to exercise. It's all good.

Total loss -- 80.8 pounds. I'll figure out the other numbers later.