Once again, I missed getting to a meeting this week, and once again, I gained weight. I'm struggling here, and that's all there is to it. I was getting pretty cocky about how easily my diet was going, and pride does go before a fall...or a gain. I know what I need to do.However, the biggest thing that I need to do isn't to watch my food intake, my points or my exercise. It's much, much harder than that. The husband's been here for a couple of doctor's appointment and to visit the womanchild. With him came his potato chips, crackers, Little Debbies and Fig Newtons, his frozen pizzas, french fries and onion rings. My kitchen which was well stocked with healthy food is now overflowing with the junk I don't need or want to eat but am anyway. My grocery budget accommodated his tastes, not my needs, and I'm the one paying the price.
I could go off here on how this compares to other areas of our life, but I won't. It's time to get assertive. With anybody else, this is a problem. It never has been with him. I don't want to get bitchy though. Regardless of the separation and intended divorce, we're always going to be family. Nothing will change the fact that we're Mom and Dad, and I want us to respect that.
However, I'm going to respect myself and my health needs. I can't have a lot of junk food in the house and eat healthy. When shopping means either broccoli or chips, broccoli will win out if I'm doing the shopping, and that's simply the way it's going to be. I don't want to blame all of this on the husband, even though it is tempting. I don't think it's a coincidence that I didn't start consistently losing eating good foods and exercising until he was out of the house. He doesn't want to eat healthy, and it's no longer my problem. I can't let it become mine again.
However, I'm going to respect myself and my health needs. I can't have a lot of junk food in the house and eat healthy. When shopping means either broccoli or chips, broccoli will win out if I'm doing the shopping, and that's simply the way it's going to be. I don't want to blame all of this on the husband, even though it is tempting. I don't think it's a coincidence that I didn't start consistently losing eating good foods and exercising until he was out of the house. He doesn't want to eat healthy, and it's no longer my problem. I can't let it become mine again.
2 comments:
I think a lot of us with weight problems are "nice" people who would rather suffer ourselves than be considered "bitchy". Do what is right for you and it will also be right for your child...the fella is an adult and he is capable of adjusting, dontcha think? Be good to yourself first.
Definitely do not let the husband come to your home and bring his unhealthy habits with him. If he needs all that stuff, he can keep it in his suitcase or something. It seems to me this might be his way of trying to drag you back down to his comfort level...some kind of passive aggressive bullshit (excuse the word...) Don't let him sabatoge you.
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