Summary: Weekly change, gained 5.6 pounds. Total weight loss, 72.8 pounds. Average weekly loss, 1.4 pounds.Well, I'm starting my second year of serious dieting with a gain. Well, isn't that fun? I know my eating was out of control this week, and I had the monthly gap between prescription refills. Three days without diuretics and my feet turn into balloons, so I'm hoping a lot of this is water. On top of that, this is the week to get my insurance pre-approval, so no meeting for me this week.
Since I gained a little over a pound last week and now have a big gain this week, I have to admit I'm a little scared. It's the first time since I started Weight Watchers this time that I've gained two weeks in a row. Every time I've done this on a diet, it signalled the beginning of the end, and I don't want this to end. I feel so much better than I did this time last year that it gives me a lot to look forward to when I lose more. I'm writing this with my foot elevated because the swelling has made my ankle stiff and sore. I also had a bad blood pressure related dizzy spell today. In short, I don't feel good, at all, and this is still so much better than I used to feel. I don't want to go back to where I was.
In the longer range, this truly has been more of a lifestyle change than a diet. The mechanics aren't hard unless I fall into dieting mentality. Dieting mentality means thinking about what I'm not eating all the time. It's an all or nothing mindset that says I have to stamp out cravings by denying myself foods I enjoy. That complete black and white thinking also tells me that since I've had two weeks in a row where I've gained weight, it's hopeless, and I just have to accept that I'll regain back everything I've lost, like 95% of all dieters. It's obsessing over my appearance and specific body parts, losing the overall image of myself because I'm caught up in the details.
So, the big question is how do I handle this? Well, the tangible thing is to get my food back within my daily points allowance. I've tracked religiously this week, and I know I've eaten too much. I've felt that bloaty, too full feeling more than once and asked myself why I couldn't quit eating. I knew it was stress management eating. Feeling too anxious felt worse than feeling too full. So, I've got to get my emotions more under control. Having several days without my anti-depressant medication did not help, and hopefully, I'll feel more balanced in a couple more days. I need to watch the night time caffeine so I can sleep better. Better sleep means less stress and a more efficient metabolism. My routine is somewhat off, and I need to make sure I include time for prayer, meditation, and if I really, really need it, time for positive affirmations. Even though it makes me feel like Stewart Smalley.
Mainly, I need to remember that this diet is just part of an holistic progression towards better personal health of body, mind and spirit. When I neglect one aspect of myself, the others suffer as well.
health and wellness, diets, Weight Watchers, weight loss
1 comments:
Even if you DID fall seriously off the wagon, it wouldn't have meant a five-pound gain in one week. Of course the diuretics (or lack thereof) are to blame.
This going weeks without your meds is bullshit. What is UP with your insurance provider?
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