The weekly weigh in, weeks 44 and 45

A cranky router has kept me offline for a couple of weeks, and that kept me from posting my weigh in from last week. In all honesty, technical difficulties gave me a good excuse for hiding. Last week, I gained 3.8 pounds that I fully deserved. The previous week I had lost huge. A six pound loss in one week is three times the maximum recommended weekly weight loss. I knew that I hadn't been that disciplined with either food or exercise, and I expected to follow that big loss with a small gain. My emotional eating binge turned that into a significant gain.

I learned an important lesson though. Despite how natural the Weight Watcher's way of eating feels at times, it's very, very easy to slip into the habits I acquired over my lifetime. I may have been dieting for 10 months, and healthy, nutritious may seem like the natural thing to do, but 46 years of yo-yo dieting and poor eating habits haven't disappeared yet. They may never disappear, and I am never going to be able to take eating for granted. That's the scariest part about trying to do this monumental thing, the Nevers and the Always that seem to hovering out there. Yet I know that very few things meet a never or always standard. This is a good reminder that I might ought to drop in on a few Overeaters Anonymous meetings. The reminder that life is lived by the moment, and food is eaten or not eaten by the moment, is something I could use right now. One day, one meal, one snack, one choice at a time. I invite someone to plant that deep in my mind until it really takes root.

So, that was last week. I fell below my 75 pound goal and am now scrabbling back towards it. Re-establishing the habit of good eating was hard this week, and I didn't stay within my daily or weekly points guidelines. I didn't exceed them by much either, and I did lose .6 pounds. It's a loss, I'll take it.

I hosted a tea today for my unofficial daughter who's getting married in a couple of weeks. I ate chocolate cake and a butter cream dipping sauce for the fruit tray. It was a party, and I enjoyed it. This was a good balance for me. I tracked my points. I knew what was indulgence and what was just good basics. I'm losing weight to be healthier and better able to enjoy life. So if I can't enjoy life on the journey to good health, something is seriously wrong. So, the last couple of weeks haven't been outstanding as far as diet results go, but they've been significant.

Weekly summary: Week 44 -- gained 3.8 pounds, Week 45 -- lost .6 pounds, Average weekly loss -- 1.67 pounds, Total weight loss -- 73.4 pounds.

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